That's The Way It Is

Don't give up on your faith,
Love comes to those who believes it,
And that's the way it is....

When you believe it, you get it.
This is the lesson that I've learned today.

Thanks for everything,
Thanks for letting me know the meaning of true friendship,
and the beauty of true friendship.

P.S. I read puppy love's FB notes today...And this post is for you as well, in response to 'LOVE IS IN THE AIR':P
Don't haish la, I'm sure your faith is somewhere out there....LOL
Who says so, Joel says so:P

What is TLC?

"Arigato gozaimasu!" "No idea you're good at art, :p"

Rant

Warning: This post weighs little value. You risk the chance of wasting your time for reading it. *Blah

Allow me to rant a few minutes...Stop me if you could.

I have no liking for lemon or lime, but my face turns pretty sour lately. You could taste the acidicity if you bump onto me. It's hard to lift up both the levator angular oris muscles. Even harder to squeeze my buccinators. And you just can't plant a smile on your face without your effort. Argh, fake smile, people will comment.

Hah, I am emotionally unstable, in short. The culprits lined up including the heat, the hormonal change, and the ultimate exam! Nobody likes it. It tastes bitter. It wrecks your life. Turns you up and down. Like a roller coaster ride. Yet, you have to face it.

But, weird enough, I love to be tested. And I like to be challenged. If you tell me, "No, you can't do that," I am ready to prove to you, "Yes, I can do it," That's how stubborn I am.

6 weeks to go! Heart is racing...chasing over the time. Tell me how should I prepare? ~Nat

To Love Or Not

February's shoutout: Love is in the air! ^_^

**A friend jumped on the train of Love lately. Waving my hand happily, I am wishing her the sweetest ever journey...Yet, she was telling me, "Nat, I ain't have strong feeling for him. I have no confidence in maintaining this relationship. Afraid of loving him too deeply...But, can't help thinking it's not fair to him."

Conflict. Complex. Confusing. Afterall, love ain't so lovely, huh? :)

I could understand her insecurity. Sometimes, we love ourselves more than loving others. Because we are fear of getting hurt in the end of the day. A deep cut through the flesh...Once is enough. But, I do believe the power of true love will eventually chase out the feeling of fear in one's relationship. And we wouldn't know when. And, we gotta have faith in love.

Love is unmeasurable. You can't count its depth inch by inch. Neither could you return any tender love by exactly the same volume?

Love isn't a trade. Need not worry about being fair or not in loving someone. Because when you love someone wholeheartedly, giving by all means...you will feel the momentum of the love bouncing back to you. Even if it doesn't, it will leave a beautiful scar on your heart...makes you prettier than ever. :)

Happy Valentine's Day ~ Natalie

S.I.C.K

I feel sick to pronounce the word 'sick'.

I am sick. Just the day before Lunar.

Whichever virus invading my immune system, I command you to leave within 4 hours. You make me sick.

Nat/

Detachment

Look up the Universe...Does the Sun hung over the giant Sky all day long? Do the leaves stay on the shoulders of tree trunk in all seasons? Is the tideline remained the same as it was?

Change is the answer.

"Oh no, it'll never change," You're whispering to yourself. Thinking of forever, immortal, and eternal? It is time to learn about Detachment.

"To begin practising detachment in our lives, we need to understand that life requires us to be in a state of constant flux. Nothing remains the same and no one is spared. Human beings, relationships, children, jobs, and even cars - the only certainty in life is uncertainty. Change is the only unchanging law of nature!" Shailaja Menon.

So they say, the challenge of life is to appreciate everything and attach you to nothing! "This too shall pass," :)

Natalie

Joel's This Is My Now

Could you see a girl with passion in heart? Yes, this is my now. I was listening to Jordin Sparks' and that lead me to Joel's new year shoutout. Yes, this is my now. Let's see what we hear from her song...

Jordin's This Is My Now:

There was a time I packed my dreams away.
Living in a shell, hiding from myself.

There was a time when I was so afraid.
I thought I'd reached the end,
But baby that was then
I am made of more than my yesterdays.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.

I have to decide, Was I gonna to play it safe.
Or look somewhere deep in side,
Try to turn the tide,
And find the strength to take that step of faith.

And I have the courage like never before, yeah.
I've settled for less now I'm ready for more,
Ready for more.

Am I ready? Life game is getting harder...the bet is even bigger...+_+

Freaking Cold

The sky is weeping torrentially. Raindrops keep falling & falling & sending chills to my lungs & bones. Searching for that pair of slippers underneath the desk to warm my cold feet. Oh, so freaking cold. I can't survive winter! The coldness make me stuporous.

I wish I were a Pengy, living perfectly on the snowbank.

I wish I were a Bear, hibernating peacefully inside cosy cavehouse.

" Shocking cold wave drops temps to 40 below zero " A report from Minneapolis. 40 BELOW ZERO?? That's bitter cold. " The weather service warned that exposed flesh can freeze in 10 minutes when the wind chill is 40 degrees below zero or colder. " Even more effecient than a freezer! Crazy @#

Off now. Curling up under my blanket. Zzzz. Nat//

I Do Not Need a Resolution

Yes. I do not need any resolution this time.

If I ever make one, I'll forget it for sure, in few weeks time...

Hence, no fuss to list out any.

I'm just getting too lazy lately. Nat//

Count My Blessing-Part II

The last day of 2008! :) Continue with my counting...

5. My birthday - Thanks to Joel, she made an effort to search for the movie I have been looking for quite some times. Touched! And, thanks to good old buddy - the handsome LS who gifted me a book. Thanks for the memories, I am going to miss you, I mean it. :p Of course, I appreciate all text messages from lovely friends. You're great, the best gifts ever. I am blessed.

4. The cake - *Drumroll* ... Self-baked birthday cake from the baker. You know who you are. Your gift was out of my expectation. I wish I could return you a cake one day. Give me some time. :)

3. My four years relationship - Well, I understand, that period of time is not enormous at all. However, it is not the length that matters, but the depth.

2. Surviving my Med school - Another 4 months left. I wish I could make it till the end. Though, the career itself is another challenge. Anyhow, I am proud of myself thus far.

1. I think so hard for this last count... And I come to realise that being alive is a blessing! We take it for granted so often. I am alive. Ready to paint my life with colours. Not resentment. Cheers.

Let's welcome 2009! =)

Count My Blessing-Part I

I must be blindfeld, without realising it's the tail of the year around! The clock is ticking...second by second...working diligently all year long. It never wait for anyone. And we never be able to catch up! :o

Leave aside the grumble, I've determined to complete an annual report on My Accomplishment -- wait, okay, there is nothing to report as I've been an underdog this year..:) So, instead of it, I am going to count my blessing one by one (and to report any good deed I did, hope there is any :p) Continue reading this...will you?

I'd prefer the countdown style, so let's start with my 10th blessing. (Rather randomly picked hehe):

10. Health - I can't help with this, as I (:p) encounter this fellow called Nasty Sicky which attacking people in all forms and means, almost every day...Thus, I am thankful that I blessed with above average health this year, with no admission, no jab required, no line, except a few antihistamines, one relapse of ezcema and few days of gastritis. That's it..!

9. Being underweight - Okay, my BMI is 16, at the borderline of underweight. I am not proud of it, although it's in? But, I am grateful to have the unlimited capacity to eat as much as I want to! (Joel will comment: You don't eat much although you say so! haha) Hmm, I am cutting down junk food & caffeine lately to save my skin. Bravo! I did it.

8. Guaranteed Future - I need to elaborate more on this. Future = Your job and payment, of course, it is not a definite equation. Nonetheless, it eases my life as I could have a steady job and a stable income for the next few decades without the need of browsing Classifields and attending Interviews!

7. Growing older - Yes, I am not kidding. I am not talking about ageing with wrinkles, hunchback, and a stick in hand. Who wants that? I am refering to growing wiser...Growth is most painful when you resist it. I recall "accidents" - failures, illnesses, disasters that made me stronger and taught me compassion.

6. My mum is always there for me - After leaving home for five years, I sometimes doubtful whether mother would still understand me as she used to be last time. And I was wrong! She understands me the best in this world. Her words make my day after heavy storms and fierce tides.

Natalie//

Midnight terror

Headache in the middle of the night. Terrible terror. The pain was so unbearable like a tight band constricting the whole forehead. And it was kind of throbbing, as if someone is knocking your head from inside. ...T_T...Waking up to search for the wonder drug--paracetamol in the dark. I was telling myself,"Please works faster so that I could fall asleep nicely.."after popping two tablets. And guess the wonder drug did its wonder work, I found myself woke up 7.30 this morning! (The time I supposed to be well-prepared and waiting for the bus downstairs!) What a shock...Okay, so? I moved swiftly like lightning and everything was done with my spinal jerk. ^_^

Blah-ing by Natalie..just ignore me. :p

想飞越

我站在镜子前

决定放下一切

一个人走在去留边缘

镜里我的脸

迷了途的眼

要完全放下我的心才发现

想飞越

这陌生的感觉

不想在我和另一个我之间

日夜换不同的脸

我想要飞

无悔的那一种感觉

从前的难以妥协

如今却放太宽的界限

能不能让我飞越自己

昨天那道地平线

我想要飞

飞向更远~Joel

A Message

My dear friend,

------------Thanks for always being there. ---------------

------------------Being a great friend--------------------

------------I am touched. Million thanks.-----------------

------------------Wish you Xing Fu-------------------Natalie

Right or Left?

I remember a quote from 'Little Prince' goes by: “It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.” And,

"You have to trust your inner knowing. If you have a clear mind...you won't have to search for direction. Direction will come to you. "

The external world and people might be cruel and cold sometimes. Well, my dear, it's alright. Let's close up our tiring sore eyes, and feel with our pure heart. We'll see where it leads us to...We'll see. //Natalie

Andrew Rocks

Since the beginning of November, I have been looking for clue here and there. And searching for answer high and low. Until Andrew text me these few lines:

"Sometimes we ask for wind, we get rain;
We ask for sunshine, we get storm.
The truth is, it's really up to us to look for the wind in the rain;
And the sunshine in the strom..."

He reminded me of a song lyric I heard a day before in Evelyn's car. So I replied him:

"Every road has its stones; just like every night has its dawn..."

And, Andrew rocks, he assured me that, "And the stone is the foundation for a good road; dawn may be boring, but stars and moon will always be around you till the next reel of sunshine!" Hooray-----:)//Natalie

心情写照

细雨午后，懒洋洋的趴在书桌，听着燕姿熟悉的歌声。已经许久没有拼一拼方块字了，心中有点丁儿怀恋这一块块优美的文字。犹如一颗颗音符跳起旋律迷人的舞支。踏入梦境。

我曾经是个追梦的女孩。不歇也不惧地抱着我的梦上路。差点就忘了我是那么的固执。而如今，却似乎失去了心的方向。脚步也不再那么坚定。究竟是为何？是因年龄增长了，那股炽热随着减少呵？摆脱了少年的情怀，也遗失了作日的梦想。

“今日迥迥而行，他日化蝶飞去。” 我期盼这一天的到来。// 桑子

N.A.T.A.L.I.E

Oh, this is not a self-promotion or a thing. I came across a special kind of keychains with interpretation of all the names in Borders. Here is mine.. :p

Naturally
Attractive
Totally
Astonnishing
Loves
Inspiring
Everyone

Candle lit

Today is Mid Autumn Festival. Preferably regarded as Mooncake festival as there is no season in this part of world here. Apart from exchanging forwarded messages over phone, I don't have any particular celeb else. Hmm, I can't even recall the last time I celebrated this day with family. Pity. I was asked whether do I have Tanglung ready in hand?:) (Oh, I don't even have any mooncake...aiyoyo)

Today is somewhat special that I'd like to do my bit as a citizen who care. I'd like to light up a candle to pray for my country and her people, especially two of the detainees under the ISA. Natalie.

Growth is the most painful when we resist

Often times, i look back my life and start to hope that i can be a liitle child again. Being an adult can be very tiring sometimes. Well, more accurately, most of the time. The resposibilities that you have to bear with and the expectations from the others.....Can be quite suffocating sometimes......

Especially recently, as i'm posting in paediatric posting and previously in O&G posting which both involve dealing with babies, toddles and children. When i see their happy faces, i wish i can smile and laugh like them. When i see them crying, i wish i can cry like them. When i see them sleeping soundly and peacefully, i wish i could too. (especially during oncals)

When is the last time i had actually laughed whole-heartedly?
When is the last time i had actually cried from the bottom of the heart?
When is the last time i had slept with no worries of tomorrow?

I think hard and i only have answer to the 2nd question.
Yup, had been crying hard once last 2 weeks.
I knew and i always know that life of an adult is never been easy, but i never expect that how hard it can be.
Life is full with sorrows but it should be full with happiness and hope as well.
Since when the robotic and materialistic life of an adult had turned me into a mercyless and an ignorance person??

I questioned myself but have no answer to it.
I was speechless.
Yet, one thing for sure.
Who i am now is not the person that i want to be when i was small.
This is not the life i want.

This is the time to change.

And time to bed. Had been in a hyposomnia state lately.~Joel